Secretly I know that it is possible for me to overlook, forgot and sometimes, ignore something without consciously knowing I am doing it.
Looking back in hindsight we see things we never see at the time of it happening. Personally, I trust my insticts and emotional responces to any given situation, over and above the logical explanation.
So, let us examine this a bit more closely, for it requires such.
First of all, if one has forgotten something (and I mean truly forgotten, not just "I don't WANT to remember!" sort of thing, which is denial) - then one has not truly deceived oneself in such a situation. For one is not in a condition of knowing and not knowing at the same time - one truly does not know.
In regards to "overlook" and "ignore" - well, you
may indeed do such things, especially in the "heat of the moment" or some other emotional state,
but you still know better! You are just choosing not to heed your better judgement in such a case. This is not deceiving yourself at all. You know, but just choose to overlook or ignore it. And yes, this is a conscious choice, obviously, even if it is an emotionally based one.
One does *NOT* have to act on one's emotions! If the opposite were true, people would be getting away with all sorts of crimes, based on some sort of "me fuhlens made me do it, yer Honor!"
Now, one can get a milder sentence due to such emotional choices, but one is not freed from consequence here, because one DOES know what one is doing, one just chooses not to heed it.
It is like getting angry - you get angry. Ok. Physical responses excepted (your heat beats faster, pulserate higher, eyes dilate, adrenaline levels rise, breath rate rises, etc), but you do not need to act out based on your anger. You might feel compelled, sure. But the actual impulse is not the action itself - that requires a choice. You may, in such a circumstance do something against your better judgement, but you are AWARE that you are doing so, however remotely. You may not consider that important in the heat of the emotion, but you know that it is.
I still don't believe it is possible to know and not know at the same time - there is still a remote part, somewhere, that is aware, regardless of the stimuli.
I have been in war, probably one of the most sever emotional types of experience that one can have. And despite some of the things I experienced there, I can say that I was still in a state of awareness - sometimes in a way that is hard to explain. Even after a landmine exploded near me - and I was in a state of shock, I was still *aware* - a detached part of me was.
Modifié par WebShaman, 24 septembre 2011 - 11:33 .